A few weeks ago on Instagram, I talked about my struggle with closing doors. For some projects in 2015, it’s felt a bit like bashing my head against a wall and the wall won’t move.
I’ve been job hunting like crazy, and no doors were opening for such a long time. I had my days of being down-in-the-dumps and a bit defeated. I had my days of wondering, ‘Is this what I’m really meant to be doing? Why will no one hire me?!’ You can read about one of those days here.
One night, I was chatting to my super awesome best friend Renee, who is super awesome and intuitive and has been my “spiritual guide” of sorts since high school. Go us! Anyway, I was sharing my frustrating with banging my head against these walls. She kindly reminded me that there are OTHER WAYS AROUND THE WALL. Woah, breakthrough moment. So, I don’t have to keep bashing my head against it to the point of exhaustion?
She said, ‘Be open to changing your patterns of thinking. There are other ways around the wall. Look for a ladder over it, or a secret passageway, or dig under it.’ She reminded me that if something isn’t working, maybe it’s the universe gently reminding us that this isn’t the right way forward.
In the past few months, I’ve had a lot of doors open. The launch of Cool People Doing Cool Things, for example. I’ve met some amazing people and been inspired almost every single day. I’ve had a lot of closed doors, what with not being able to get a job and all. And, I’ve had a lot of doors open and provide what looks like an amazing opportunity and I get all excited and then BAM. The door is closed again.
What does this all mean?
People keep telling me, ‘Maybe it’s just not meant to be. Something bigger is coming.’ and most of the time I just want to punch those people in the face (love you all!). Then sometimes, in my calmer moments, I realise…
SOME THINGS ARE JUST NOT MEANT TO BE.
I’ve been knocking on the door of what I thought was my dream job for soooo long. Occasionally, someone has answered the door and we’ve had a lovely little chat and just as I feel like I’m getting one foot inside the cosy warmth, the door shuts again. Phew. Exhausting.
Maybe you’re not into all this woo-woo universe business, or maybe you are. Hopefully some of this resonates with you. Let’s get into some real talk.
I’m not going to tell you I’ve figured it all out. I’m not going to say I had a lightbulb moment. In the name of real-talk, I’m going to tell you that I’m trying to remember that maybe, just maybe, the reason I haven’t got my dream job yet is because I’m in the process of creating it for myself. Yeah! Maybe this IS my dream job!
Yeah, it freaking sucks so hard when you want something and you can’t get it. Just like when we were all toddlers and wanted that lolly and mum or dad wouldn’t comply. Just like that. We’re entitled to some wallowing, and a temper tantrum or two. But then we will rise again! We will get back on that horse, and any other metaphors you can think of, and we will ride into the sunset towards the greater dream. Because something is always just around the corner.
A final word of advice… (not that any of this was advice, oops!) When you’re feeling frustrated with all the closed doors, take a moment to remember the open ones. On that day a few weeks ago, I made a list of all the things going well in my life, then all the things going bad. One list far outweighed the other, but that’s okay. I made a conscious decision to focus my energy on the things going well, because open doors equals more open doors. I made another list of ways I could spend more energy on those good things. Yay for lists. Give it a try?
Go forth and be cool!